I am training to start a new job this week mar. It is not rocket science and they are not going to pay me big bucks but at least its a paycheck. I miss our talks so much... I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

I guess it does not really matter how old I get I still need you. I believe you know whats in my heart but not being able to talk to you is so hard Mar. I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

Hi Mar just sitting here on a beautiful Fall day the temp is in the 70's I know you liked Fall it 's very corlorful and the leaves are bright and pretty. I know you know that there is alot of saddness and emotions running wild in my life right now I talk to you everyday and draw your strength to help get me threw these times it comforts me when I talk to you and it gives me hope I love you Mar thanks again for listening!!!! Janis oxoxoxo

Even now when I look at pictures of you on here the tears come so fast. I know I am the same person but something inside me changed when you died... A lost feeling that never leaves me... I will love and miss you always...Barbie

Thinking of you often this October, so many birthdays I miss you very much...love you always.

I went to your grave today Mar and I always feel good to be there where you are but it still hurts me inside to leave. I hope you like the colored mum I left. The trees around here are just showing a little bit of autumn color. I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

I will love and miss you always...Barbie

I remember all the fun we had with you mar. fall was so much fun going down cellar and picking out our costumes.Going trick or treating in your beach wagon,running like crazy door to door.mar it seems so empty without you .barb and i stay close by davie like we promised you . i will luv you forever brenda .

I started decorating the yard for halloween. If I close my eyes and think about halloweens past I always smile. I remember how much fun Mar made that special magical night. I put up a cute girl scarecrow for Emma she talks and smiles at it :) I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

I remember when august was finished and the threat of an early winter would have you wishing for a indian summer. I find myself thinking about you so often and wishing you were here with all of us. I miss you Mar and will love you always...Barbie.

Andrew started 2nd grade this week he has grown so much over this past summer. on the first day we were waiting for that yellow school bus just like you did for us when were kids. Andrew reminds me so much of Dwayne he even spiked is hair just like his father use to do !! Steve and Steph's little boy Landon is so precious and perfect he already is up to 14lbs and still growing. I talk about you alot to Andrew and plan to do the same when Landon is older. I miss you so much you're always in my thoughts..........love Janis

Oh Mar Emma is so beautiful and smart. I remember that you would call Amy your PLP (precious little person :)... Emma is so much like her... She helped me shuck some corn on the cob and was so proud she reached the corn. She was 9 months old when God called you home.... I miss you so much and will love you always...Barbie.

I miss and love you so much Mar... my emotions are running a little wild lately... I have not been by where you are for sometime so I think that has a lot to do with it.... I promise to vist there soon...I will love and miss you always..Barbie.

I love you Mar and when I saw this tag of the window with the curtains blowing with a gentle breeze and the butterflies of course I thought of you. I sit in my backyard and watch the trees swaying and imagine how wonderful it would be to have you sitting next to me talking about anything and everything. I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

Well Mar I will be having my first family gathering here tomorrow my heart aches with so much sadness because you will not be here. The countless number of holidays and birthdays spent with you on Kane street are cherished memories I will keep inside of me forever. I will keep this page open the entire day... I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

Well Mar your new great grandson is now a month old already wow time does have away of flying bye . Me and Jim hopefully plan on seeing Landon, Steve & Steph this weekend. We are also getting together at Barbie & Rick's new house in Fairhaven on Saturday I miss all the times we got together at your house Mar it's not the same without you but I know that your spirit will be with us all. Love and miss you..............Janis

I kept telling Thomas how much fun we use to have as kids going under the water from the hose hanging from the clothes line Mar so I put mine over the line and let him run around getting wet, it was so much fun for him. I do not let a day go by without remembering what a awsome Mom you were... I will love and miss you always...Barbie

I want to come everyday to this site but my computer keeps going on the blink I think its the humidity messing things up:( I got the cutest stepping stones the other day Mar.... very country. Rick is working on getting rid of all the poison ivy in the yard.... then I can plant till the cows come home lol. I wll love and miss you always...Barbie.

I just miss you so much, I have not had a dream about you lately and really wish the dreams would come more often because being able to see and talk with you helps to lift up my broken heart. I love you Mar...Barbie.

It's a beautiful summer day today Mar the sky is so blue and the temp is around 80 degrees I get a nice breeze threw here from the ocean about 4:oo or so I can also smell all the smells from the ocean water Marion is truly so breath taking in the Summer months .. I went bye to see Barbie and Rick on Saturday her house is coming along she is so happy to be finally settled in her new house . Rick and her have done so much already I'm so happy for them and I know that you are also beaming with happiness for them too ! Love you and miss so very much........................Janis

I remember sitting with you mar and talking about the day I would have my own house and how I would fix the yard up. Oh my gosh lol I ended up with poison ivy!, its getting better now. We talked about how pretty it would be to have a wishing well with flowers in the bucket... I will get one... I will love and miss you always,,,Barbie.

I remember in the summer time being a kid and catching fire flys in the backyard Mar. I thought about this because at this new house every night you can see them lighting up in the darkness. I miss you so very much... Love Barbie xox.

Hi Mar Your great grandson is here Steve an Steph welcomed a beautiful 10lbs 10 ounce baby boy yesterday july 8, 2009 @ 4:26 pm he is 22 inches long and has a perfect round face just like Steve did we he was born remember Mar. Jim and I are so happy . Steph did great she delivered him without any drugs Mar we are so proud of her. Steve never left her side they were a great team. I promise I will tell him about his Nanna as soon as he is old enough !!!! Love you always ..............Janis

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Woohoo Steve and Steph!!! I bet he is so beautiful:) Congratulations... Mar would be so happy to know another lovely grandchild. I am so happy Jan he will have you and Jim you are both great.....xoxBarbie.

Wow I have not been online for over a week I missed not coming here to your site Mar. The house is coming along now that we are all moved in it is not so stressful. I will love and miss you always...Barbie xox.

Hi Mar I met 3 of my neighbors today. Across the street are a couple named Joanne and Don. The house to the right of mine is a sweet older lady named Ann, I am sure we will become friends :) I miss you so much. I will love you always.

I remember when I was little Papa was going to repaint the picket fence around our house and I told him I would wake up early and paint with him and with Mars help I did get up on time and Papa was so happy:) I have been so busy lately Mar getting the new house ready to move into. I did not want alot of time to pass before I came back to this site. I will love and miss you always...Barbie

Me too as well as Barbie have been thinking alot about you Mar I remember how much you enjoyed sitting in the front yard for hours in the summer time watching over all the kids. I was just telling Barbie the other day I remember the pool we had in the back yard you and pa would let all the neighborhood kids swim in it on a hot summer day we all had so much fun in that pool. I also remember Pa tying up the garden hose to the apple tree in the back yard so we could cool off. We didn't miss out on anything as kids growing up Mar you made sure of that !! thank you and Pa for being our parents................love Janis

I have been thinking alot about you lately and dreaming of you too. The white wild roses are out all over the place Mar they smell so pretty. I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

Mar my heart is troubled right now, so much going on and I am very anxious.... I wish you were here. Love and miss you always...Barbie.

Good morning Mar Bella has arrived she was born last night at 5:O7 pm at Tobey Hospital . Jeanne and Joe are so happy with her arrival. she said that Shannon is good and Keith is still on cloud nine he never left Shannon's side for a minute . Oh ya she weighs 7lbs 10 ounces and is 20 and half inches long . Jeanne said she's beautiful and has a lilltle bit of dark hair and has Cote feet !!! I wish you were here to see her but I Know your already watching over Bella as she starts her life with terrific parents .....love you and miss you ......Janis

I love you Mar. On this Memorial Day I pray for all of our armed forces fighting for our freedom and I will thank God for all the brave souls who gave their lives for what they believed in. You are always in my heart...Barbie.

I am sitting at Ricks work desk using his computer and was thinking how much I miss you. I love you... Barbie.

Hi Mar just got a call from Jeanne she said that Shannon is having a lilltle cramping I think Bella is about to make her entrance into the world her doctor said that if she doesn't have her by Monday he is going to induce her so she should be arriving soon how exciting !!! Hey Mar remember when Jeanne went into labor for Keith and you brought her to St Luke"s and passed the hospital street and you did a u turn in the middle of county street and Jeanne had him fast let's hope that Bella follows in her father footsteps will keep you up to date..................love Janis

Hi Mar yesterday we had Steve and Steph's baby shower at their house your great grandson is due in about four weeks or so !! Me and Jim can't wait for his arrival we are so excited. Thomas and Emma were there they are growing so fast I know that you're watching over them. I will let you know when he arrives!!!!!! love ......................Janis

Everything beautiful reminds me of you...Barbie.

I visited you yesterday on Mothers Day and left a flower. It really is a beautiful place where you were laid to rest. The trees were all swaying with the heavy breeze we had it sounded so nice. I always feel sad on the ride out but when I get there I feel peaceful. I will love and miss you always...Barbie.

Happy Mother's Day Mar wish we could celebrate today together I miss you so much. Me, Jeanne, Barbie and Brenda were together yesterday at Shannon and Keith's baby shower for lilltle Bella she is due soon how exciting for Jeanne and Joe they can't wait until she's here . Thank you Mar for being our Mother all my love ...... Janis

I bought Amy a Mother's day card today Mar, and the whole time I thought of you. I liked the verse that was inside alot the picture is a little lame but she will like it im sure. There is so much happening right now, how I wish we could talk. I love and miss you so much...Barbie

Love on Mother`s Day.

I remember so many Mother's Day with you Mar . we would all meet at your house with a little something flowers, cards, candy whatever you always embraced our gifts with a smile thank you so much Mar for being our Mother!! We learned to be the best Mothers that we can be becaused we learned from the BEST YOU thank you again love your daughter Janis.........

Memories of your love makes my broken heart beat with less sadness. Of all the people I will meet in this lifetime you were the most important. Through all the hard times I am so thankful you were there. Heaven received a beautiful soul when you were called home. Everything that I am is because of you. Remembering your eyes smile and laughter will not be hard, not hearing your voice is a silence difficult to bear.

It is a beautiful spring day Mar.. I love and miss you so much. Your lilac tree has so many buds on it. I am sure David will pick a big bouquet for the house like he use to give to you. You remain in my heart always... Barbie

I remember brown lunch bag bunnies overflowing with goodies. Baskets one for each of us placed neatly in the front porch. Foiled eggs hidden throughout the house. I will always remember your love. Barbie.

Well Mar it's Easter another holiday without YOU so very difficult for all of us. We miss you so much!! I remeber when we were kids you would hide chocolate foiled eggs around the house we had so much fun finding them.. My boys keep that tradition going every year .. love you Happy Easter Mar!!!!

I really miss putting an Easter basket together for you Mar. I still give one to David :) I love you so much and keep you in my heart always... Barbie

I had a dream about you last night, you were sleeping and had on pink outfit...you looked so pretty. Love you always Barbie.

Its about 3 am and I cant sleep... what I can do is remember what a beautiful caring thoughtful mother you were. I love you so much now and always... Barbie.

I miss you so much...there is alot of things I wish we could talk about. I love you...Barbie.

Gathering at your house today Mar for your 1 year anniversary of you leaving our lives and entering a different path was so emotional for all of us but I know that we have to except that you are gone and we will all be together again someday. Everyone of us felt that this past year was so difficult because YOU weren't there with your loving touch and your wonderful smile that somehow always made everything ok we miss you Mar today and always you were the best MOTHER in the world!!!! love your daughter ......Janis