Remember our song? Pinky and the brain lol. I miss riding motorcycles with you by my side. I still struggle day by day to understand the way our perfect day out on the bike ended up when we got in my truck and needing to help someone. It's just the way we have always been. That helping someone ended your life and altered me mentally so horrifically. I talk about you to everyone. You are always with me. My sweet butterfly. I know one day I know you will be waiting for me when its finally my time and with some joke or jumping out and scaring me. You always could make me laugh or smile when I was recovering from me getting paralyzed. Our favorite color was always pink. I miss my GIRL. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.

Yesterday a clerk at the store asked me if I knew you. It shocked me. Its been a few years since our accident and there isnt a day that passes that I wish it would have been me instead, No one understands the sisterhood we shared. You were the only one there for me when I was paralyzed on my bike. I live with regret everyday. My mind is still on that day and why didn't I grab you. Why didn't I save you. Why did God take you instead of me. I cant get the vision out of my mind of how I found you. Life is hard for me living with such guilt. I am so sorry. I Love you and will never forget. I cant even consider being close to another female because no one can replace the sisterhood you and I shared. I am sorry and I miss you terribly.

I have so many memories I dont know where to start will always remember all the crazy fun things we did together.She gave me my nickname and it has stuck with me for 11 years.....