Hi Garry, I miss you, man. I think I saw you about three times a week for the last few years, whether you were getting tattooed or not. I just want you to know that we all had a lot of fun with you at the shop on your last day. There was a lot of off color humor that I won't repeat here, surrounding the tattooing you were having done that day, and I felt like there was a really good feeling of camaraderie, and I'm glad. Marco felt the same way. I kept expecting you to walk in the door for a few months after you were gone, and it seemed so strange that it wasn't going to happen. I'm thinking good thoughts about you now. I hope you know that. Jason

February 17, 2008 My heart will never be the same.. If you can wrap your wings around Mom and Dad right now... dear brother, please do so.... Your tender spirit lives on, you are loved so much. Love your sister ~ Tink -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- March..7,2008 Garry, If I could continue where you left off... I would do it for you.... I would finish your dream home, I would pay off what little left you owe on the property.. I would have your kids grow up there in the country town, just as you dreamed... If there was a way.. I would...... My heart aches as we let everything go.... your dreams, your plans... you..... Will this pain ever get better? People say it does... over time..... I have my doubts... it only seems to break my heart more and more as time passes. I have been spending a lot of time with Lee and your best friend Neeko lately, it seems to make it a little easier to be and talk with them.. Lee reminds me so much of you as a teen, when you were not just my brother but my best friend.. I have so many regrets and so many things left unsaid. even though I said them to you when I said goodbye to you before the funeral, there is nothing I regret more than not saying them to you when you were still here with us.. Mom and Dad are holding up ok... Mom, trying her hardest to stay strong and help Dad take care of things.. you would be so proud of them...you know Dad, hard as a rock and taking care of business.. I know you see everything he is doing for your kids, he knows how much you love them... I have never seen the loving side of Dad as much as I have seen during this hard time, I am beginning to see where you got your sweet spirit from, and we thought all this time it was just passed on through mom...I know you see how much he loves you now.. You have made it possible to help him show it now... you know.. He tell me he loves me all the time now...I even heard him say I love you! to his sister the other day.. aunt Kathy chased him down the driveway at your memorial, trying to get her turn... you are making miracles happen big brother... I know you heard every word that everyone said that stood up and spoke that day, at your memorial.. Richard, Neeko, AnnaMae, Adam...me.... You have made it possible to bring everyone together and helped other family members to and forgive and forget and come together again...... So many people love you...... I wonder.. when you were still alive if you ever thought how many people's life would be affected once you were gone... if you didn't know... you do know now...... I know in my heart dear brother you know how much I love you, and how sorry I am.... as I promised I will be here for your children.. to help guide them in hard times, and they will know what a loving wonderful father you were and will know how much you love them... I love you.... Love Tink ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- June 18, 2008 Garry, This last Sunday was fathers day and a tough one for all.. Your phone call to dad and gift in the mail that you always made sure to send like clock work, made it yet another painful reminder that your not here.. I gave Dad a gift this year... and I made him tear up.. It was just a little something, that said.. When I have problems that I can't solve and I don't know how to fix... I just ask Dad... That is so true... isn't it? he has been the shoulder for both of us to lean on for so many years.. It seems natural to go to him when we couldn't solve a problem... and he would always know what to say and do to help us... I know you sent your love to him this fathers day... as well as I know all of your kids sent up to you... Dad took me with him to see your little one's It was the first time I had seen them since you left us.. and one last stop to your property before Mom and Dad head back home.. They were here for Cameron's Graduation You would have been very proud of him, he walked down the high school track just like you and I did years ago... what a happy yet painful few weeks it has been.. just when I thought things were feeling tolerable and feeling strong enough to move on and think only good thoughts and memories.. and here comes the sad and painful thoughts flooding in again... what an emotional roller coaster it is... yes.. life does continue, but the life we have now is missing a big part without you in it. I knew it was going to be hard to see the kids, but it was something I needed to do... I think the hardest part was to see them and know how much they love you and miss you and your not going to be able to give them your bear hugs and kisses anymore. I know you never wanted to leave them dear brother... but I am sure you are looking over them and you won't miss a thing... Brady is a joy and has so much of your personality and Trevor is the spitting image of you.. He has your eyes.. although is somewhat on the quiet side and that is nothing like you! and your sweet little Maddy... Oh Garry, you were so right when you said she was Tina Jr. She has my strong will and loves attention... I am so happy you have left so much of you with us in your kids... I find some comfort in writing to you.. I am thankful for being able to do that here... It makes it possible for me to put in words how much you are missed and to send you my thoughts and my love. It does help me get through the hard days... It has been 4 months and still waiting for roller coaster to stop, so if you have any strings that you could pull up there, tug on them will ya? If your able... see if you can get God to give Mom and Dad some rapid healing and much needed comfort, the loss of you... has taken such a toll on them, as well... and I know a little help from above would be much appreciated... I love you Bro.. Your Sis, T -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- May 27, 2008 This Memorial day takes on a different meaning for our family.. The first Memorial Day where it is you we are flying a flag in remembrance of. Mom and Dad's Veteran's flag project keeping them busy today, and yes they are flying a flag this year, with your name on a ribbon. I know you are looking down on us and you know how much we miss you. I took a ride and went to your graveside and left flowers again.. I don't know why, because I know you were not very fond of flowers and always thought they were a waist of money. Yet I continue to leave them.. I took a beautiful picture of all the flags, during my visit today... I will post it in the photo album. I do find a little peace in the midst of the sadness when I go there to talk to you... Yet I wonder sometimes why you can't just find a way to talk back.. I am not used to you not talking, you never were able to stop when you were here, and now just to hear one word It would be forever treasured. but I still do have many memories, and they.. I will keep and treasure them forever. Today instead of remembering you with overwhelming grief, I will remember the good things, the happy times.. I looked out in the field as I was sitting by your graveside and I smiled, a childhood memory of ours.. Hay Stacks, you know the ones? The big ones..by our first country house in Woodland when we were little.. The big stacks of hay we used to play on, the ones you hid my baby doll in... You know....the one I never did find! I miss you every day big brother... More more thing... thank you again for the Ladybug! I love you, Love Tink -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- April 16, 2008 Today is your birthday, but I can't sing you happy birthday in my off key tone today.. The only thing that today brings me...Tears and sadness missing your laughter and your funny sense of humor. This has been the hardest few months trying to stay positive and needing to keep reminding myself.. that this is not all just a bad dream.. I thank you for all the good memories you have given me, I will cherish them forever dear brother.. I love you! Love Tink -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- April 14, 2008 On Wednesday this week, April 16, will be your 43rd birthday and I miss you more and more each day; I doubt what they say is true, that it will get better in time but I sure hope so. One thing I can say for sure is.....no more spring fever for you my son, your Aprils have been so very hard for you all your life; this year, you will certainly have it so perfect up in heaven. Mom and dad are okay, one day and one moment at a time. I have waited and waited to sign this guest book, wondering just what will I say? I will say happy birthday our first born son, we miss you and will love you forever and will see you some time, right where you are. One more thing, Lee is doing so wonderful; your sister and Kurt have taken him under the umbrella of their loving caring family; he has two jobs and going to school and will get his diploma and learn to weld, like you started to teach him. Neeko has helped him spiritually and they all go to church too. Hope you enjoyed the balloon messages your babies sent up; they miss their daddy too. Love from your dad's ladybug.....Mom