• Anonymous
    18-04-2012

    created memory in Donna Brockman

    created memory in Donna Brockman

    For those that didn't know, when I found out Grandma was terminal we were here at Memorial Hospital in Colorado, the doctor told us together, and the first thing she did was smile and comfort me. She told me it was ok and she was alright with it, and I did my best to smile back, and asked her what she was going to come back as in her next life. She smiled and said she would come back as my kitten, good news, cept that she had now locked me into getting a cat.... worked out pretty well though, because after a short search we found Pepsi, a beautiful and I mean beautiful kitten who had been born 10-10-12, same birthday. When I first saw Pepsi, she was sick, took this as a sign it had to be grandma since she had been sick in the end so it was the natural progression. Anyway long story, short....too late. Pepsi was amazing, never have loved an animal so much, bonded with my family like no animal I've ever seen, was always being held, was never out of sight and a true true joy. She slept with Tavia, and loved to cuddle up by your neck. Purring machine that loved grandma's old white blanket that we have now. She never learned her name but anytime I would talk to her about being grandma she would brush her head against my chin. Was very comforting having what I considered at least a little part of Grandma's energy and spirit with me. Sadly after 6 months Pepsi passed away from a lung issue no less. A virus that all kittens are exposed to and mutates in some, can't be treated and nothing could be done to save her, believe me we would have done anything. As uncke Steve told me when I told him, I guess it really is better on the other side. And it would be just like Grandma to sign up for a short trip back to complete her promise to me. Now to the signs that for me just make me feel like she really is in a better place and she wants me to know. When Pepsi passed Dawn and I knew the kids would be devastated, but they were at school so we decided to go to the humane society, see if there were any kittens we could find (we had also put down another one of our cats 2 days previously so). We didn't find any kittens but one of the cats names at the shelter was Pepsi. So we find one that is in the back and go to sign up to see it, the guy who puts us on the list asks Dawn for her name, when she tells him, he writes Donna on the page... we kind of look at each other, like no way that just happened, besides the D they dont sound alike at all.... I mean he could have heard Don, but Donnawould have been a crazy stretch. Anyway we dont get a cat there, cause we want the kids to meet any kitten we get, and I have to fly out to Florida to visit Dad. I get on my plane and we have a weird kind of spring storm before I can fly to Denver and then to Ft. Lauderdale, I get delayed enough I miss my connection. I get re-routed and have to spend the night in Chicago, O'Hare airport. In a weird way it was nice, the flight fiasco was a distraction that took me away from being sad about Pepsi and what could remind me more about Grandma than traveling and Chicago. Ok so I know Dad had something that he took as a sign happen before I got there, can't remember from the life of me what it was but during our trip we decide to go to a casino. As we are parking and walking in, we talked bout grandma and about me placing a bet in Vegas after Unc had passed #32 in roulette cause Unc had always made dad make that bet, and while I was on the phone with him we hit the number, with 6 $ on it, was a really cool moment... So walking in we are talking and say, lets place a bet for grandma. Well grandma didn't have any number in particular that I can remember except maybe the 10's from her birthday. So we decide the bet is going to be $10 on #10 ... 10 - 10. Well we walk in and go to sign up for players cards, and we get up to the counter and the female employee signing us in has an id badge with an employee number of 10 - 10- 10456....and there is no roulette at this casino.... so grandma couldn't win me the money but she was nice enough to direct me to the one employee out of the 7 checking people in with the number. Im not normally a signs kind of guy, but thank you grandma, I miss you like crazy, but I know your still with me, and I would venture to guess your doing well. All my love David

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