It gets harder and harder to go on in life without you. God sent us Sam and I see you in him but it is not my baby GIRL...... I love you!

I am so proud of you Amber! You have changed my life... Now i know to enjoy things while I can and to look past all the bad things and see the good. I love you and your family so much! I keep you in my prayers. You are a very blessed young lady and we will all remember Kassidy Leighann Peterson forever more.

I miss you so much. It's not suppose to be this way. You were suppose to be with us trick or treating. Thanksgiving is around the corner and you are suppose to be here. This Thanksgiving will not be as thankful as it should be but I know you are better and not hurting and not on any machines. It hurts everyday and doesn't get any better. No one understands. No one can feel the hurt that I have. No one can help get me through this. No one but the One that took you on home. He gets me through day to day. I am so thankful for the weeks I had with you that no one else did. Your baby brother is almost at the week that you blessed us with your presence and left us before we could show you true love. Because of you, our world has changed and our outlook on life is soooo much different. I love you baby girl.

Everyday gets harder and harder. Halloween has pasted and we were suppose to take you trick or treating. Thanksgiving is around the corner and you were suppose to be here with us. This year my Thanksgiving will not be as thankful as it should be. I am thankful though for the weeks I had you with me. No one understands me. No one understands hurt like this. No one can do anything to help. No one but the One who took you from us. He gets me from day to day right now. Your baby brother is now a few days away from the 27 week mark that you graced with your loving presence and left us way too soon. I love you baby girl. I miss you way too much! Love, Your Mommy

I am so proud of the fact that even your time of sorrow you thought enough of others to have an alter call at her service! You are a blessed woman!

It will be a year ago this weekend since my little man left this world. I found out I was pregnant in February 2009 at 5 five and was so excited and scared att he same time. I was nearing forty and this was a first baby after trying for nearly 5 years. I had to go into work and tell my boss and she was not very happy and put me under alot of stress. I first started bleeding at nine weeks and was told by my early pregnancy unit that everything was fine and that was the first time we saw him and it was so incredible to see I could not stop crying but this bleeding went on until I was fourteen weeks. I was kept in hospital for a few days and then sent home. But was back in on the Friday night with such pain and heavy bleeding. They kept me in and I had a funny feeling he was going to leave me as earlier I had a dream that he had died and I wok up crying. On Satuday the 3rd May 2009 at 09:45am he left my body and there was nothing I could do about it. I was on my own except for the nurses and I had to phone the man who is now my ex that I had lost our baby boy. I also had to phone my family in Australia to tell them as well. My ex came to see me and I knew that day that it wasn't just the baby I lost as we split up 6 weeks later and he did not want to talk about the baby. I named my baby Joseph Isaac Alwyn Shanada. His middle names are after our dads who are both diceased and I had already chosen his first name. They bought him to me and I held, hugged and kissed him goodbye. Even now as I have had to get through this on my own even though it is a year later my heart is still broken as I know I will never have anymore children which is what I want most in the world. I will always miss and love my little man Joseph. Love Mummy XXXXX