Happy Birthday Baby. Was okay as it gets. Smile knowing that your loved. miss you beyond words, life is not the same. Look after tickles. You are my angel and I love you. B grade are in the semi's.. :( im sure its you willing them on :) so will pop out to check on roberto the cricketing hero and give them a big go parkers for you. How about my brilliance and home reno skills hey.. K found that photo of us I had been looking for everywhere, so here it is i am really happy about that, I love it. How about channel 7 starting the boring home shopping at 1am... thats when you know its a recession. Ka Kaw.. Mwah SO much love baby... Always in my thoughts, heart and conversation you are my life and one day somewhere i will be your wife. Your life continues through those who love you benj. The depths of loss that i feel is undescribable. I still cant believe that this is really happening, I just keep going. Knowing that your by my side somewhere gives me the strength to keep busy, be succesful and make it go quick. Now this is why I DID NOT WANT to be big baby. The older you get the more loss you feel and the more people that you love you lose. Such is life huh. Nevertheless all grumbling aside my world is a better place because of you and because you loved me. So on your birthday im sending you the Hugest hugs and so many kisses all our love Peppiola & I. xxx xxx

Pepper just ate your hanky!! She is very naughty yet extremely cute much like her father actually!! Love you lots baby.. Its been a lil while but you know what ive been doing and where iv been so im not too perturbed. Well im sure you love your lil neice she is very cute and her mum is very happy and well too. Your car is moving again which is lovely to see too. One year came and went along with 14 anniversaries a new year and grandpa joining you. I fear when i told you after nana died that that would be the beginning of a bad run for me, neither of us realised the depths of it. It continues.. Im sure you and nana w are being the hosts with the most but Look after them as they bless you with there presence please baby. Thanks for everything my love your still my hero! Birthday boy soon, not sure what to do as you know, anyway i'll wing it. Gonna play with your music now if you'd like to inspire me. You know the night i saw you after, in my head i thought you are so beautiful and 'dead sexy'. Then the reality of my words hit me. How many times did you use that phrase... now it sits in the back of my mind and the pit of my stomach, repeating constantly each time i look at you. The ionys in life are astounding to me. Anyway i need to make a fortune so help me out. Im just doing what i have to and though im being very selfish and hibernating right now, i need to so i guess its the right thing. Feel guilty but just not enough to change it. You are so handsome, not a second goes by that I dont love you from the absolute depths of my heart baby. It is just as powerful as ever. I always said i didn;t understand how people just stopped loving people and i dont think i ever will. You are always with me, in me and a major part of who i am and i am SOO proud of that and of YOU. You always tried (in your own way). I understood and appreciated your efforts, I believed in you and continue to and can never regret anything. I am not disappointed in you at all, You are who you are, thats who i love and as long as you greet me with the biggest hug in the entire afterlife i will be a happy woman. I long for that day without wanting to top myself, just knowing that when the time comes Ill go right this is it, yeah i get to be with my baby! You inspire me every day, you still make me happy just by thinking of you. I want to think of you and talk about you all the time, Lest people forget you my love. You are not easily forgettable! You are my prince mwah mwah so much love baby. Look after Tobio, jack, allof us here and nanna and everyone with you. Get nanas roast on baby and greet her with it when she joins you please.. lamb. Sorry about not taking nan her roast baby, I absolutely hate myself for it. Gotta go see her but not really wanting to face her like this, but will. Give me more strength. Anyway, Thanks for looking after me, dont go anywhere Love you tremendously Always in my heart and mind benjamima. Your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Benny A whole year has passed now and I still feel like someone must have made a mistake and you are really off somewhere havin good times and will come back any minute. It kills me that when you were here we spent so much time bickering at each other, but now that you are gone I would give anything to be able to spend more time with you. We did have a lot of good times though, I have a lot of fun memories. You were the only person who let me sit on your shoulders so that I could rock out to bands, even though I'm sure I nearly broke your back, but that never stopped you because you didn't like to let people down like that. I learnt from you that every day is precious. You always lived each day as if it was your last, and I now understand why. Somewhere inside you knew that you only had a short time and you had to try and squeeze as much in to the time you had been given, which is why you were always so energetic, fun, loud, vibrant, and the life of every party. Even if there wasn't a party happening you always tried to turn every day into a party, which annoyed me some days, but I would give anything to be woken up in the middle of the night by your loud voice screaming out that it's time for some "good times"!! I've got your MLS hat hanging up in my lounge room. You were such a gentleman (NOT!) taking the last one, but in retrospect I am so glad because it is now so special to me. I'm sorry for clashing with you but I am so thankful for all of the good memories that I have of you. I believe that everyone comes into your life for a reason, and I think that you came into my life to show me that everything doesn't have to be so serious, sometimes you just have to let your hair down and forget everything and just be free. I really hope that you are ok wherever you are and that you are watching over us all down here, especially Britt. I will look after her to my best ability, but please don't ever leave her side, she needs you now more than ever. Give her the strength she needs to get through every day, and I will keep trying to put a smile on her face (although you know how stubborn she is, it's not an easy task!). I miss you mate. Your friend K xx

You are stunning. I love you with all my heart. Lisa bought your car baby, now we just have to get her driving it. I just cant believe this year, nor do i want to. Thank god it has been a blur and I am numb. Heading up for some lead shortly and to have a pale with tobio for you. Knowing your with me is all that gets me through this life i tell you. I never had to pretend to be cheery before but now it is just draining me and I soooo don't want to do it. I dont understand how anyone can be happy, nor how the earth continues to turn without you physically upon it. You are constantly in my mind, heart and thoughts. I am trying to write your memoriam message for the paper, now thats hard particularly when they charge by the characters and i have always got sooooo much to sayy! When it comes to you and how much i absolutely adore and miss you, it is so hard to be brief. I cant believe that this is not a situation i can fix, i keep wishing i could come up with something and i've already eliminated numerous possibilties such as tantrums, begging, praying etc. I am comforted by the thought that you will be there to meet me when its my turn however, I am not yet resigned to being patient! If theres a way to bring you home baby, i'l find it. Until then, i'll wait grumpily. I miss everything about you, down to your stinky socks and thats saying something cause your socks were pretty bad and i've actually sniffed your ford slippers and if that isn't enough to get you back i dont know what is! I miss absolutely everything from looking after you, talking to you, watching tele, your stories, your cooking and coffees, fighting with you, being amused, conned and annoyed by you, being woken up by you and just holding your bloody huge hands and having the hugest of hugs. I am such a better and stronger person for having been loved by you. If i had of known how long we had, i would have stayed by your side 24/7 and absolutely kissed your ass baby. But retrospects a bitch. Time will not heal this wound, I may learn to live without you again but you will never be out of my mind. You live on eternally in my heart and the hearts of those who love you. Happy anniversary for nov when i was to grumpy to write anything nice and to upset to look at this page and for dec in anticipation. Hope you love the new paint! Watch over us all my angel. I love you sooo much and miss you with every inch of my heart. Eternally your Princess xxxxxxxxxxxx

A good man, who helped my Mum out with the heavy jobs around her home over a number of years; someone who gave my niece times of happiness and joy. Someone who quietly sat by while we talked or gardened together enjoying the things that I liked and could do with her. Someone who cooked and made coffees, moved the car (s). Watched TV, and indulged my dogs, someone who helped Britt move furniture around making time for her and him. I am aware that they did other things and that she was happy and sometimes sad. I remember him at Edwin Ave living with Britt, at Lyons Road and at Telowir Ave. I remember their trips away in the country while Britty talked about country houses that she would like to live in. It was Britt around this time who encouraged me to go live football games of the Port power, me who never ventured out in Winter at night because of health reasons; I did and enjoyed the experience of catching the footy bus, making picnic teas and coffee. I am glad that I met some family and friends. Cheers to you all,

Well thanks for a lovely day sat, how about k putting your presie on my tab hey?? Thanks for helping me find mine. Go Ford! On holiday soon baby, you better be following me please. It feels very wrong to have any good times without you physically by my side... seems just impossible and not right! But i will give it a whirl. Need this break. So look out Australia... You are my angel and I am thankful every day for the woman you helped me become. You showed and taught me so much. I got my first house baby... I am so devastated that you aren't here to enjoy it with me...certainly takes a lot of the joy out of it. But the relief is certainly overwhelming. Look after everyone up there for me and all of us down here my love. Help us stay safe and sane. Until next time, or until we are again in each others arms.. I love you more than i could ever explain, but i take tremendous comfort in the belief that you can read my thoughts, feel my feelings and walk silently by my side for eternity. Thanks for my rose. I miss you so much. All my love my beautiful beautiful prince. Roberto sends his love and I saw the terrible two in pirie (lol) today. They are good and it was so lovely to see them, look after Jack, Marilyn and Tobio my rock, they need you now. And your beautiful sister uncle benny. so many kissessssss xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx and hugs ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Love as always and forever my prince, your princess.

We both know what day it is so may it be bareable and pleasant. Love you eternally MWAH!! Bloody Hugest hugs my love. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy blah / soul 9th anniversary baby. You are so beautiful to me. How about you getting messages from Bette hey??? Weeds would be jealous. Pirie bound tom to rejuvinate the levels and hav my fix of our sights. My flower shops closed so im at a bit of loss. I'll have to nvestigate a new one then, will have to venture to your cheap as chips i think. Still gotta find our tree but somewhere in melrose showgrounds, or that property you drove us through *3, may be an overnight job. Peppiola would actually prob like that but no places love peppers for overnight visits :( Poor pepper. Gave her a hot lamb kebab and she did not like it.... heada over the water bowl! She was a RED HOT CHILLI PEPPER! ANywho baby, I Love you. Will smile for you today.. ltd time only.. kodak moment etc... love love love, hugs hugs hugs and i know you are proud to finally have your face all over the internet... as it should be. We miss you each micro second, but you know that. Only time will tell baby - until then mwah xxxxx xxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxx

I love you like life and one day, in one life, I will be your wife. Yours forever and ever my love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Okay my love- ive spent two weeks trying to think of something mildly nice to write for our 8th soul mate anniversary (ive just renamed it from blah - soul as now there mates to) anyway.... Iv got nothing baby. But its the thought that counts. So because I know how much joy my singing and music gives you & my writing out those lyrics for you as a loving gesture inspired you here it is... Il let the pro's say it all but happy 8th soul anniversary baby, you know how much i miss you each second and I love you so Happy anniversary... I know you'll love it! enjoy. Hey.. and the more the merrier huh???? Love you always my prince fly me the flock out of here in your zephyr! Forever your princess xx I wanted you to know, that I love the way you laugh, I want to hold you high and steal your pain, well... I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well, I want to hold you high and steal your pain. Cause im broken, cause im lonesome and I dont feel right, when your gone away. You've gone away.. it dont feel right here anymore. The worst is over now and we can breath again, I want to hold you high and steal my pain, well... theres so much life to learn and no one left to fight, I want to hold you high and steal your pain. Cause im broken, well im broken, I dont feel right, i'm not strong enough, cause im broken, well im lonesome and I dont feel right when your gone away.. You've gone away,... it dont feel right here, anymore. Love Seether & Evanescence xxxx This ones a special one for you baby... Broken windows and empty hall ways, a pale dead moon in a sky streaked with grey, Human kindness is overflowing and I think its gonna rain today. Scarecrows dressed in the latest styles, frozen smiles to chase love away, Human kindness is overflowingggg and I think its gonna rainnnnnn todayyyy. Loooonnneeeeellllly,..... Looooooooonnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllyyyyyyyyy................ Tin can at my feet, I think i'l kick it down the street, thats the - way to treat a friend, Right before me the sounds emplore me help the needy and show them the way.. Human Kindness.. is overflowing.... and I think its gonna rain todayyyy....... Loooooooonnnneellllyyyyyyy..... ssoooooo loooooonnnnnneeeeelyyyy Tin can at my feet I think I'l kick it down the street, thats the way to treat a friend. Right before me the sounds emplore me help the needy and show them the way. Human Kindfness is overflowing and I think its gonna rain toooo daaayyy. Lots of love always bette xxxxxxxx

Ka Kaw Ka Kaw. UGH im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooover this baby. Ka Kaw. KA KAW!! I love you so much i can not bare anything anymore. You had better not be having any fun over there without me! I AM CERTAINLY NOT! ugh I am so irate about everything and there dog! Its just better when i say nothing at all as i have nothing nice to say except I love you benjamima. The hugest hugest hugest hugs

Happy (blah) anniversary my love. 7th one without you, apparently 6 months has gone by. It still feels like a blur, still hanging onto the denial. 6 hours, days, weeks, months, years - it feels like all of that. Like 6 hours sometimes and 6 years others. I miss you so much baby. I glittered everyone and didn't even warn them all (except 1 kind of). You would be so proud & Frosty's #1 in the championships!!!!! Happy Happy Joy Joy !!!!! Thank-you for everything and for every minute. I have been so surprised by people since you disappeared benj, in both good and bad ways. Definately an eye opener with regard to human kindness, friendship, love and peoples base emotional responses. Your love and this experience have taught me more than I will ever realise. I hope that you can say the same, im sure your probably learning more than ever, from there. It's certainly been very different here on all fronts, without you. I am so grumpy without you here to make me laugh, yell at, argue with and grumble to! My car has been copping quite a bit of abuse lately! Worse than that - 8 coopers pale ale's lasted me 6 months!! Our love was just so overwhelmingly strong, neither of us could completely understand, or express it properly. It will transcend this seperation and remain with me until 'you are'! Ugh. Being strong sux. Its all nauseating baby! Im Grumpy!!! Getting old sux, let alone without having you here to tease for going grey first and passifying my occasional tantrums with regard to the unjust and disgusting aspects of this world! I dont like it, surprisingly! dont dont dont! blah! 30 smirty! Where's my coffee, The north pole?? I have and will always be proud of you benj. Im constantly dissapointed for all we've missed out on doing and not getting to watch (tease) you get old, I was so looking forward to that, as were you. At least you will remain eternally beautiful while I age very ungraciously and all smokes allowed for, very wrinkled, with one leg, no eyes and half a throat. Anywho.. I miss you, I love you, I'm proud of you - you gave it a burl and had fun!Most of all you loved me! Happy 7th blah anniversary my saviour, my prince, my love. xxxxx xxxxxxx oooooooooooooooooo xxxxxxx 0000000000000000000000000000

Ben lit up room his presence was felt. He was funny genuine kind tolerant accpeting easy going and never made anyone feel excluded, im proud to have known him. He was one of the few people at a family gathering who took the time to give me a hug and a kiss, i regret not taking more time to get to know him better. Im glad he made Britty feel so loved and appreciated. His death was an unfortunate tragedy. He touched so many peoples lives and willwill always be remembered. Death is nothing at all, I have only slipped away into the next room, I am I and you are you; Whatever we were to each other, That we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, Speak to me in the easy way which you always used, Put no difference in your tone, Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we shared together. Let my name ever be the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it. Life means all that it ever meant, It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner. All is well. -Henry Scott Holland, Canon of St. Paul’s Cathedral, London

Are we there yet? are we there yet? Ugh & Ka Kaw, Ka Kaw! Love you baby. Tonight can we go to the top of devils peak and sit? Got my first zero in the footy tips. Mwah. all my love now and forever and ever and ever. You will never be my past baby as your constantly and currently still in my heart, my thoughts and my soul. Stay there. xxxxxxxxxxx

Thank-you. I am a stronger, more confident and better woman - because you love me. I regret nothing. Baby I feel you, I hear you, I know and I will try. It is taking all my strength just to go to work and be happy and act like lifes bloody wonderful to all those people, who then want to tell me their problems... nauseating! It is draining being me right now. I was nearly out of puff...again.... but each time I am at my lowest, you relieve that pressure somehow and give me a little more strength. I know that your the wind beneath my wings holding me up right now and quite frankly, I couldn't do it if I didn't truely believe that. The idea of you not being with me is literally, to much to bare. I just cant. Denial is getting harder and harder, but now knowing your with me either way, feeling you around me, gives me my strength back. Now that I can finally remember the good times, I can almost smile again. You'l be pleased to know Im last on the footy tips again this year (wallys first - going opposite to me again)! You know how much I love you. You will always be with me, in my heart, in the things I do and say and I will live and breath for you each day. I wont let you down benj, I'l do it... all of it.... with a little extra fun on the side just for you. Finally, know that I am so proud of you. I am proud to be loved by you and I am proud to love you. My love, you helped make me all that I am, You will always be my man. Goodnight angel, See you at Sleepy Hollow. xxx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxx

Benny I'm always thinkin of your always in my mind, there is still not a day thayt goes by that i dont think of you.. i hope you are resting in peace an keepin away from the no good ones up there guess what I have 5 months left of year 12 an then i have finally completed all my high school years of education hehe :) i hope your proud of me cause i gotta be an stay strong for the ones who i love.. i'm kinda gettin fed up with dad sometimes he is gettin more grumpier as the days go by which makes me down the drain a bit but knowing you you'd say it'l be right sis.. but i dunno feeling like im growing up and need to start living my life but i feel im under dads wing all the time an i dont like that an i want to leave but if i leave i feel he wont love me as his one an only daughter anymore.. just that cooking tea everynight, cleaning up, doing this an that its really starting to get to me and i feel like im bein used being 17 an going through this shit is hard on me and i feel under stress all the time an i dont know how to explain it to dad hmmm well lots of love hugs and thoughts with you everyday and everynight Benny.. XXXXXXXXX

The Prince and his Princess

Britt Wilson

12 years ago

Where have the good times gone baby. I love you always and forever xxx