Happy birthday baby, I miss you always xxx

I love you Benjamima. Struggle town, be with me this week. Thurs we go to pirie, am i there yet.... All my love always xx always your princess, always my man xx

Happy anniversary my love. I still love you like life. All my love always your princess

Happy birthday love of my life. Time does not heal, it merely passes. I love and miss you like life, everyday xx

Happy Anniversary baby, I love you so much. It would be 15 years since we met today, I still miss you. All this time, I am still sad. You are my rock, my prince and I love you like life. The good times might be long gone, but you are forever in my heart. I'd do anything for a hug. Love you like life baby, forever your princess and eternally my prince. Happy Anniversary xxx

OMG baby, life is hideous right now. It just goes on and on and on and there never seems to be a happily ever after. Just as I thought there might be a happy ending, another crushing blow. This year has been one blow after another and im running out of steam and strength to keep picking myself up. Be my rock my prince, I need you so much right now. I miss you so much baby. I will try to get to Pirie asap. I love you like life benjamima, please help me now. Always your princess forever and eternity xxxx

I love you like life baby xxx still xxx

7 years later, I love u benjamima. Well today was different, but lovely. Missing u and thinking of u everyday. Love u like life baby thank u for everything. I'm happy again all the more for having had u in my life. U r my rock. Thank u for John. Happy birthday to coach, love and missing him too. Be happy boys xxx

I love you baby xxxx now and forever xxxx

Hey baby, how you doing?? ;) im piddly. so... 6 more days.. great. gosh you're stunning. Im bored, got foxtel!! You would have loved it, so im still a grumpy wench... 'even my shrink says it is all your fault ;) ' lol. Hope you boys are running amok up there. Wish you were here, life's lonely, weird, boring and quiet without you, the tranquility was nice, but im over it now. Seriously send me some god damn joy. Spawn are well. Last game of cricket next week shall go out for you two. Furthermore lead levels should be renewed fri, flowers replenished... 6 years baby, unfuckinbelievable. I love you like life, one day i'll be your wife, in another life. Until then, you will always be my baby. Even though im grumpy and shit I am so grateful for you, you have made me soooo strong, like maybe too strong lol. Fearless and also slightly stupid lol anyway i am eternally blessed to have been loved by you, you're still my rock and I will always be your princess. More love to you baby than i ever knew i had xxxxxx

I love you like life baby. I miss you so much, it's devastating... still. You're forever in my heart. Eternally your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy monthly anniversary baby. Nearly your birthday. Today sucked, same shit different day. Baby, Juliana just arrived sat night she is a true angel and was just such a lovely person, please give her a bloody huge hug for me and all my love. The knives are out for me baby for a while, please watch my back and give me strength. Your my rock and I love you like life. You know where i am at and whats going on so some love would not go astray. I miss you always baby, I need you now more than ever... hold me up and carry me through this year, or find me someone else too lol. Love you love you love you my love xxxxxxx

Happy valentines day my beautiful beautiful prince, today was a pretty good day considering but did you really have to slam my finger in the car door.... that was a bitch. FYI and i was kinda hoping for flowers to come falling from the heavens but anywho hope all is well up there angel and coach, tickles, nanna, aunty d, nanna b and co are all happy and well and enjoying the show. Fringe, Clipsal, your bth all soon and BDO was rocking and i might even go to future music festival!!! and maybe soundwaves!! Having good times for you baby, your a lot lighter and more easily dragged around in my heart than by the hand lol. Boys are all well Australia Day with Jeffrey and weeds and jonts and Tiger did the running man in your honour! Was killer! anywho Love you like life my prince xxxxxxxx

Happy anniversary and big day out day baby. Lets have a ball tearer :) Good times my love good times, gonna bounce and scream the chillis under water for you and you are gonna love it. Make it the best yet. Like life baby xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Frick baby thank you thank you thank you! Im on fire! Man i asked you to give me strength and my bubble back and you did. Thank god because being solemn was just killing me, I am so grateful. I feel full of life again, better than ever lol I feel like i have a bit of you possessing me lol. I am now just telling it as it is, saying what i mean and feeling fitter and more confident than ever. I would even say.......... HAPPY ........ baby lol. OMG. heaven forbid. 3 More sleeps til BDO chilli peppers baby im soooooooo excited for us both lol. F***, what a long five years my love, i think i can finally see through the storm cloud and appreciate life again having had you in it. So grateful baby, help me make a raging success of this life and make it full of billions more absolutely good times. I know you will send me someone new to love when its time and until them i am just gonna run a small muck lol. I will love you until the last breath of air leaves my body Benjamin. Forever and ever and ever and ever and through a myriad of lives you are my love and i am your princess. I'm so grateful for you baby, all my love eternally. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

5 years baby, it's bull shit isn't it. Have not been looking forward to this marker. Woken up early ... fantastic thanks for that lol. Hoods on the stereo, Having my coffee then poo and i are heading up to collect my ring and some lead. Well I dont know that i am any more well adjusted, recovered, or happy but I guess i'm no worse lol. I've got nothing yet baby, I love you as always eternally. I miss you more than i could ever say. You are my sunshine and I will always be your baby. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx All my love forever my prince.

God i love you. Thanks for the chat with Maria today, i'm glad you are all good baby and I promise to try. So you know whats going on and i'm so glad your looking after everyone up there and are happy baby.. I shall try to be happy but it is not an easy task. Bring me to life my prince. I don't just remember the pain and your memories don't just make me sad baby they also make me smile, its just followed by sad lol. I miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much, like soooo much baby. There is no greater pain i could feel or have felt and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. You are still my rock, fire me up and give me strength this has been the longest, crappest, blurriest five years of my life. Wake me up when December ends. God I pray the next five are better, it is a lonely, dull, solemn life without you in it. Fingers crossed you send me a new savior cause it is a struggle. Look after the lut and keep her focused and free from distractions. I love you coach, tickles, claudia, kathy, Rajeev, cameron and all my beloved grandparents and aunty d. Your my heaven crew (hows the iony baby since i met you at heaven!!) You and I were meant to be and will be again, I am everything I am because you loved me and I would not change our time together (bar extending it) for anything. I just wish i knew how little time we had :( It was a pleasure to look after you and I am blessed to have loved you and been loved by you. Thank you my angel.. I love you like life and will be your wife, in another life. Thanks for talking to me and meeting me in my dreams, that stolen time is cherished and those times remain ingrained in my heart. No words can express my love for you Benjamima, but I give you my love no matter what, you will always be my baby. Ron My Love, my savior xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Til we meet again .......... I will remember you and I will LOVE YOU BEN!!

Love you like life my prince. Headin up to see you soon baby it will be one year on the 22 that you got Johnny so we are taking him up to see you. Might sneakily leave a bit with you but dont tell anyone. Look after Jeremy baby, he is a nice boy and will be bundles of fun for you, show him the ropes and help him adjust. I'll keep an eye on kezy and cathy for him. Also Daylees dad, he left us last week, he is a nice man and I know Dayle will appreciate it. Hopefully he can help keep you in line ;) I took down some of your pictures finally baby had some complaints from mum lol who said what do i have to do to get on your wall, die? I though mmmm fair point, so anyway, i collaged you! Hope your okay with that, im comfortable with your face in my heart and mind now and feel like i can take some of them down now. Im getting there but still miss you every second of every day. Help Morgana through her first year anniversary without coach and Dayle and Cathy and Kezy through their grief. May we all become stronger for having yours, coaches, Johns and Jeremy's love and presence in our lives. I love you baby so much, always and forever in my heart mind and soul. Eternally your princess mwah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today would have been our 10th anniversary baby, That means we had 5 together and now 5 apart. I dont think i can get up there today baby I have assignments to do *8 by 30th and this whole Darwin business its all getting a bit much. Forgive me but i'm there in spirit and i know your here with me anyway not buried beaneath that marble but still, im sorry to have to choose my assignments over tending to your resting place. I love you baby. life's hard at the moment full on and full of decisions im not confident making and assignments that just go on and on. My bth sat and i cant be bothered. I mmiss you immensly benj. I need your guidance right now and strength and steely determination. Im so grateful to have you in my life benj, dead or alive you are my prince, my rock and my love. Eternally yours baby. xxxx

1hr and 9 mins xxxxxxx

My Gosh, I miss you so much baby. Wish you were here with everything I have, it just doesnt work though. Give me the strength to excel, be focused and get what i want my love. Help me out prince, seriously i sooooo miss you. Been so good lately too but tonight my gosh, it hurts like it hasnt hurt in a while. I am everything i am because you love me baby, I had your heart, i had it all, I was blessed because I was loved by you and i will carry your heart with me till we are in each others arms again. You are still my rock and I love you like life, carry me through the rest of this life on the wings of my angel. My world is a better place because of you. Til next time hot stuff. All my love now and forever my Prince, eternally your Princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxx xxx xxxxxx xxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx xx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today would be your 36th birthday. Heading up to Pirie soon baby love you like life now and always your princess xxx

Will Davison won baby he is now batting for my team!!!! First frosty second!! Tander gross third. Thanks baby you rock! xx

For your birthday please make fpr and djr top 4 thanks and take out that whincup and tander. Thanks love you xx

Merry Christmas baby. All went really well but i miss you so much my love. Hugest hugs benny, I love you like life baby. Fingers crossed next year will be really uplifting and constructive for me. Give me strength. All my love, princess xxxx

If tears could build a stairwell and memories a lane, Id climb right up to heaven and bring you home again. I love you like life baby. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today was Lisa's 21st!! Can you believe it! She looked beautiful and happy and we all had a lovely day, in the stunning weather. Gabrielle is gorgeous, her house is gorgeous and your dad and all are well. It could have only been made better by your company. We all love you so much baby bloody hugest hugs my love xxxxx xxxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxx xxxxLove always your princess mwah xxxxxx

I miss you sooo much baby. Tryingto be healthy and good which sux but is good feel better but soooo god damn lonely. Not that I want to socialise i just want u. Still seeing u in others while im driving and the unbelievable sadness drops in which is quickly passed with a shake of the head in the disbelief that you have gone. I just feel so ripped off and pissed off. 4 yrs this year baby and the pain hurts no less, the lonliness still prevails, I just get better at hiding it and more numb to any emotion. This life is so long without you and im just at a loss still as to what im doing, everthing went out the window when you died and clarity is yet to return Happy aniversary for friday baby in anticipation. I love you soo much benj, words can never express it. I miss you soo much and I'd do anything to have you back. All the love in my heart helps little to bring you home, so until i see you there baby, stay by my side, I still need you here. Help me to achieve whateva it is that is keeping me here. Give my love to johnny and everyone baby. I love you like life baby. Hugest hugs xx

So five days after my last message, Coach left us to be with you. Its been suitably manic since. Morgs and babies doing well considering, there's starting to be more of us there than here baby, ruckin schmukin. So since, we've had your dads bth party, Lisa's soon. She's all good, your neice is stunning of course. Caught up with Dave and your ma at Johnnys funeral they seem ok. You and Johnny will be so proud cause I dragged the lut to the cricket sat afo just in time to see Roberto batting who got a good 17 runs off a shitload of balls saw out 5 wickets but just missed the paper and it was his bth! So morgs and I dragged him and weeds over for drinks for both there bth's tho weedys is still a mystery. It was great! They rock, but its still not the same without you two, though we did spend a good wad of time talking about you both in your absence. You are aways in our hearts and thoughts my love. Shark was too soft, but no surprise there lol. Then today I took morgs and babies to Brettes and sus'd out his new place by the beach, he looks really happy finally which is great. Look after him baby, keep him injury free for at least a year hey? Finally Frosty Kicked ass today my love, NUMERO UNO! Yeh! Sadly missed most of it but caught the most important bits. Having lead withdrawals so will head up next weekend my angel to see you and straighten up the flowers. Also hopefully finished my grad cert baby, fingers crossed results not out yet! House looks great. Give everyone my love, so many now... Coach, tickles, nanna's, grandpa, poppa, cameroon, tet, kathy, Rajeev, Miss Claudia, aunty d and company. Look after everyone I have left down here for me, not ready to loose anymore for a while. Coach, help the lut get back her faith in something, psychic time soon. Love ya johnny. Love you like life baby, everyday i am so grateful for having had you and for the love you continue to give me. I am so much stronger for it and so grateful for my pepper, she and annie are my new saviors. Bloody huggggesst hugs and eternal love, you're always in my heart my prince. Love your princess xxxxxxx

Love you baby and miss you tremendously. Bloody Huge Hugs, love always and always your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

must be time to see christine ey baby lol. love you like life xxxx

Everyday without you is about as much fun as being stabbed in the eye with a sharp impliment. And thats the polite version. Frick me baby im over it. Time does not heal it merely passes. Slowly, painfully, and without any meaning. Happy happy joy joy. Happy belated anniversary for may. Rescue me. Send me somthing good, cause i have nothing. Same old same old. I am sick so extra sooky, but for god sake life is just work for money to pay shit, to buy shit, to work borrrrrringggg! I just dont know what i need besides you back and those stupid boys refuse to check or let me know about your flowers, such good value NOT! So another drive to pirie for queens bth to check myself. I'd do anything to have you back. Psychic fair this sunday, be there or be square. I want you to talk to that amir whatever his name is, you disappointed me last time. just say hi. Your ghostly skills really need some work. I need a change so bad my prince, give me something. All my love to nana's, pa, poppa, aunty d, tickles, cameroon, miss claudia, raj and everyone else. Look after coach and morgs for me too they prob need you more than me and thats saying something. love you baby sooooo much. Ill just wait here then!!!! huge hugs me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old; Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun and in the morning We will remember them I will remember you my prince x

Today would have been our 9th anniversary, instead im heading up to pirie to the dead centre of town. Firing up a bit this year baby, working hard, missing you. Went to the footy sat for the first time at AAMI without you. We got beaten by the suns which sucked and by 3 points to make matters worse! Still was a great day. AND I actually joined, you'd be so happy. Look after my lovely Raj who joined you recently. I Miss you beyond measure baby. All my love forever your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today you should have been celebrating your 35th birthday. Instead we are gonna celebrate today, the 31years you did have. I have a lot of scotch, a bottle of moet and some of our good friends heading over tonight. Taken the weekend off and am ready to have some good times.. finally. Today im gonna fire up and celebrate your birthday as you would want, with a great night and a lot of booze. I love you like life baby and miss you every second of every day. I want my bestest friend back! Anyway, enjoy watching us enjoy you today. All my love always my prince. I might even sing you a song! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy belated valentines day. Ive finally decided what to do for your birthday. Dont like tryinjg to work it out, often think everyone just wishes i'd get over it so they can but as i pointed out to one person, i can move on but im taking you with me. Its a nice blend of both i think baby. ANywho, gonna have a party at our place, rip roarer, taken the day off and maybe sun too, not that pat knows that yet! LOL. Its the same day as soundwaves, so dont feel bad if lots of your friends dont make it, I tossed up soundwaves myself. If you were here thats probably where we would be however, my practical tight assed attitude prevails this time and wil be good for those who cant afford it to be here. anywho. love you baby. I hope your playing nicely up there, huge hugs x

My gosh, this cat with the xmas tree is driving me nuts FYI! D day was surprisingly lovely, with the help of pat, tobio and poops. It wasn't until later that night, when I was finally left on my own again that a minor meltdown occurred. However, nothing a further trip to pirie alone and a freak run-in with Christine at midnight mass tonight couldn't fix. I know you loved xmas, so Merry Christmas my love. Your death has left a heartache no one can heal, but your life has left a memory no one can steal, today and every day, we remember you. Love you like life baby. Eternally your princess xx

Today is doomsday, off to rejuvinate the lead levels and change over your flowers, with Pat this year. 3 years ago today we lost your absolutely stunning body from this world, but we have never lost your spirit. It is such a blur, it seems to have gone so quickly and like yesterday you left for work, but then again it feels like an eternity. I feel so blessed to have been loved by you. You are safe in the hearts of everyone who loves you. You remain my everything. I love you like life baby. One can only hope to make you proud at this point. You'll always be my love, eternally your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxx

"Don't ask me, what you know is true, don't have to tell you, I love your precious heart. I, I was standing, you were there. Two worlds collided and they could never tear us apart". I love you my rock xxxx

What a year! The good , the bad and the ugly. This year you gained Miss Claudia, she rocks you will love her like we did! I miss you baby. Give me (&djr) strength, I need it right now. Some direction couldn't go astray either. Keep everyone safe in your hands. 18 more days til my lead levels are rejuvinated. You are always my savior, always my man missing you with every breath and loving you with every beat. The anger is buried in the numbness and not yet subsiding, but we keep going. Time does not heal it merely passes. I love you like life baby. Huge hugs and eternal love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

A SAD LOSS OF BEN AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE.

WHAT A TERRIBLE LOSS OF A HAPPY & FUNLOVING GUY.SO YOUNG.

:'( your in the arms of the angels, may you find some comfort here. Happy 8th anniversary baby. I miss you so much. I still just cant believe all this baby. This is the first anniversary i have been at home for. dads away and im in charge of noahs ark, so no lead poisoning for me today im sorry my love. just dont know what to do wtih myself today. just gonna wallow in misery i think. went out as requested to roughy's and georges bth and blakes & sons wedding. Iv been a good girl. I love you baby. I see you everywhere my love, i just dont know what to say or do right now (besides wallow in misery). gonna go outside and get some sun i think. I love you always and forever. Dont ever leave me baby. you promised you would follow me evrywhere and im counting on it. Help me pass this yr with a little more success than the last two, feelin up to it (generally however, not today). Your my prince, my rock and my angel. Look after lil dave and lisa and all our friends and family for me. Give my love to my nannas and the rest of my family up there and tickles. Miss you all. I love you like life baby. Hope you like the new green machine. Eternally your princess, i carry you with me in my heart always. hugest hugs my prince xx

gosh your stunning another lil ann passed. mwah. Your always with me my rock. love you always and forever more and more every day bloody hugest hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Today would have been your, should have been your 34th birthday baby. I miss you so very much. Im working for the first time on your birthday, since and i am not looking forward to it, 12hrs too... :( Life absolutely sucks without you baby, it is not amusing, or half as lively. The worst part is (besides 777 moving to holden & the burgoynes leaving port & will stuffing up your djr posters) nothing feels right anymore. We all miss you terribly. My heart, love and thoughts are with you constantly. The tears and pain have slowed in favour of a numbness that allows one to continue, even though your not beside them. Whatever works - but the tremendous loss, sadness and just general feeling of emptiness remains. Today I am just so sad you are not here to celebrate 34 baby, not here with me in general. However it is also the day you came into the world so thats definately worth celebrating. I'll try not to be too miserable and to just be glad you were born at all. I Miss you so much. I took for granted how much i relied on you to talk to and just how well you knew me. Today the world should celebrate being blessed with you benj cause you were definately a gift from god, I hope you are safe up there in the arms of those we love. Your definately safe down here in our hearts. Your always my prince, my rock, my love, my baby and my angel. I love you like life, you are resting safely in my heart until we are together again. I will take you with me everywhere I go benj. Free ride... bargain. Look over those you love, keep them safe. Shine brightly. I love you.

Well my lead levels are recovered. Blues won tonight and as they sang the song reminded me of our trip up to blakeys in Clare and on the way we listened to the blues win and you taught me all the words. Didn't get them all right but love you. Miss you baby. Keep my beautiful ma and freud safe on all those planes please. your daddys birthday soon, im onto it. Feeling so god damn anti-social ka kaw baby, Also .... Gosh your stunning. mwah so much love my kisses and thoughts are with you for every minute of every day my angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy Anniversary again beautiful. I contribute all my good luck today to you and therefore consider them all presents. So thank you for a loooovely day. You rock my world had a nice chat with uncy erb today he misses you :( Dont we all baby. Life is soooo boring without you and poor pepper has to listen to me rabbit on all the time with no back up! Thinking of you every minute of every day my beautiful angel. miss you every second and wish you were snugly tucked away here beside me. I no i havent been for ages but i aim to every weekend... if you would just wake me up this wouldn't be a problem. stupid no daylight savings. Will try again this weekend but fair and v8s are on so not sure but im working on it. Love you like life baby, one day i will still be your wife. Eternally your princess soooooo much love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well it is now officially the 25th April 2009 - ANZAC day, what would be / is our 7th anniversary. This time 7 years ago you found me in Heaven with brette and tickles and swore you would follow me anywhere! I continue to hold you to that. That shark couldnt come as he didnt want everyone to know the cant dance, Plus he has no taste in music lol! I am soooooooooooo glad you came into town for my brithday that night baby. You rock my world. Once you put that bloody huge and absolutely stunning arm around me that was it, I never wanted to let you go. You were just so god damn sweet and charming when you chose to be baby, mmm you absolutely touched my heart forever. You will always be my baby, my rock, my angel, the love of my life and i miss you every second of every day. Everything thats happened since has been a breeze in comparison to losing you. You made me strong in so many ways. My heart positively aches baby. My 2nd anniversary without you telling me to wake up for the dawn service.... i even miss that and who'd thunk it? At the time I absolutely cursed you backward for making me get up any day let alone at 6am but now I would give anything to have you back here annoying and charming me silly. Now with all the love in my heart im sleeping til at least twelve today baby but will be wishing you were here to wake me for the dawn service. I just miss you so much every second baby. Happy anniversary benjamima my price charming. I told you i'd love you forever and i meant it. Hope your looking after nana w, grandpa and my ever growing crew up there and met nana b with that huge roast lamb you promised her. I hope she is soaring like a dove now and you are giving her some comfort. She really liked you baby and She was soooo wonderful to me, so look after her please. ALso jack and tickles plus grandad and catherine and louie (who's being recorded in the Port Bull Dogs hall of fame 1.5.09)! Also Robbie and the boys won the GF for Rose Park woo hoo!!! Go the parkers. Watched some wwf with weeds and alex which was fun. Hope you love the house and my teeth!!! spewin you aren't here to see them... How about this retainer?? Ka Kaw! SO much has happened in the time ive had them on baby. So much loss. It was quite sad. So il just smile to the heavens so you can all catch a glimpse. I know there are so many others dealing with tremendous loss and that the glory of love is to let my poor heart break a little.... but geeezz louise... Definately harshed my mellow baby. I take comfort knowing that We shared moments that will last til the end and that when the world is through with us, we'll have each others arms. I lost my love and my best friend the day you went away but know that there must have been an angel with a smile on her face when she thought up that I should be with you. You are precious, angelique and absolutely stunning. I love you so much benj. Happy 7th anniversary my one true love. Forever your princess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx mwah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy Birthday to you. Woops this is the photo. Love you more.. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx