My year of magical thinking is up and I have to come to grips with reality. What is reality? You are physically not here with us but I know you have not left us. I see you in every butterfly I see. I see you in all these kids faces. I talk to you everyday and I know you hear me. I feel your presence especially when I am struggling. I hear you whisper in my ear. When I start to stumble I feel you hold me up. I hear you answer when I ask you to guide me, I feel you gently point me in the right direction. There is not one memory I want to share but an infinite number of memories and that number is still growing even though you are not physically here. I want to share this feeling of certainty and assurance I have because I know you have not left us but instead you are waiting for us. Thank you mom for staying and please keep visiting us. We will never stop wanting to hold you but just knowing you are still here for us will sustain us until we are with you again. I Love you Mom. Don’t worry, I am ok with people thinking I a little crazy. I have never been one to worry about that. As for reality I think it is over rated.

Your daughter,
Sonya
P.S. We love you the whole world.

i no nana is in my heart .she is my angel. butterflies help me remerber my nana. she took care of all of us. some time i cry because my nana is gone. i pray for her. my nana pick me up from school.

My youngest daughter's birthday is approaching this month and when I sit to remember the day my family was blessed to have her come into our world, my Aunt Jenny's hope and love still feels stronger than ever. When Lauren came into the world 2 years ago, she needed a little extra TLC to get herself going....fortunately modern medicine allowed her recover to be, however modern medicine didn't fill the whole I had in my heart leaving her at the hospital and returning home without her in my arms. During her hospital stay, many family members offered support and love during the difficult time, especially Aunt Jenny. I remember her sitting next to me and Lauren in her incubator (tubes and monitor's all over the baby's body)....Aunt Jenny stayed with me for a long time and she kept telling me that Lauren looked strong and beautiful and she would be out of the hospital and home soon.....her loving words were needed during this time and her hope and confidence that everything was going to be okay was like a beam of warmth light on my loom and gloom days at the hospital. As Lauren turns 2 this month, I will remember those days with my Aunt Jenny at the hospital and her gift she gave to me and continues to give to me. Thank you Aunt Jenny! I love you and miss you!
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