Just missing you today... Wish you were here. The weather is just as you liked it and the festive spirit is about, just the way you loved it. Love you Daddy...

I just came onto this website to hear the song and to .... write this, It's very strange that i am writing this because you can't read it, but i will write it anyway. I miss talking to you Daddy. I miss just picking the phone up and hearing your voice. I miss hearing your music playing, i miss hearing you play the guitar. I miss how cross you used to get for me and so many others. I miss seeing the love you showed my baby girl. I miss your humour, i miss your intelligence. I most of all miss your understanding of things. I MISS YOU terribly Daddy and i really hope that there is a way that you can read this in Heaven, because i really want you to know that I miss you and Mommy misses you and Jillian and Melanie misses you and Cassadi cries for you all the time.
I hope you are happy , as i said before, i am sure you are.

I honestly can't wait to see you again, really. If there is any comfort in the fear of dying it would be that I will be seeing you....I will be able to talk to you...

Cos it's 3 years already today. I feel like the wait is not over but something is telling me that it should be because you are having so much fun where you are. I sit back and think, that you should be having a ball, because i know how much you loved your wife and children and grandchildren, so to have something keep you from us has to be as they say "PRETTY DAMN AMAZING" and i can only think of one place that could be and where you belong more so thatn ever and that is HEAVEN. Cass cried for you the other day and i never shed a tear because i know and take comfort in knowing that you are waiting for us and that you are probably not even reading this, but the comfort in writing it makes it more worth it, cos it's like the order is being placed for our next meeting Daddy. I eally thought and was under a positive impression that you will make your flawless appearence again one day and i even went to sleep now thinking that it would be grand and you would come back on the hour of your anniversay. But aagh man back to reality it's almost that time and well, that just not the way things work, and you would probably be laughing at me if you had to see my wait and feel my anticipation. All i can say right now is, good for you daddy, that you are somewhere other than here. So much has changed in the world since you left. Let's just say aside form having so many stories to tell regarding my kids, stories to tell about the world you were so interested in, we will have to set aside some days when i come and see you. So ..... this is not a day that i want to say Oh i remember you the most, because it's no special to ALL the other days i wake up thinking about you or the other times i thought today might be the day he came back cos he has to know how much we missing him he has to know the pain that we are all feeling, he has to see how far we have drifted from each other he has to see that he has to know. He is with the one being that connect him to the truth of the matter. But ... that is not how it works. So i am not going to say that this day is the one day that i think of you the most cos it's the day you left so suddenly. I will just say that it's okay that you are not coming back ( I can't see through my tears here hahah) and that I hope that it's all that you thought it would be. Today more than ever i have no doubt that it is Daddy. Have fun and I love you.