Memories of Erika H Odermatt-Patton

My Poem to you Erika I wrote 2/7/1992 Remembered I gave you this I wrote I found in your box
of keepsakes.....
CALLED:
Erika....knew
I love how you hold me and let me love you....a love I knew would be true.
I love how you smile,laugh and clown..a love I knew would have no bounds.
I love our kiss and your caress...a love I knew would be better than all the rest.
I love to see me in your eyes, and the way you call me Paradise..a love I knew had no disquise.
I knew when I loved you from the time we met, somehow your love I had to get.
I knew I loved you, I knew I cared, somehow I had to have you.. somehow ...somewhere.
I knew when I touched you even for a moment, that I wanted you, needed you , without you
I would not be content.
I knew I was addicted to you right from the start. Right from the moment that you stoled my heart.
I could not hold back, I could not wait , not for a second, could I hesitate.
My love for you ..I had to express, I was ready to explode, I was spontaneous.
I just knew I had to be heard. I just knew I had to say the words...I 've always been in love with you Erika....I just knew I just knew...Love Always Kay

Erika I miss you...I was looking at your cards you bought me and one you titled "My Hero" I do not feel like a Hero...I feel like I let you down. Not able to save you. Helpless, I wanted so much to pull you out of the hospital, oh baby you were so sick...they infected you so bad...and I could not find anyone to save you. No...Not a Hero.. I feel like a failure...I know honey..you would hold me and tell me it is ok....but, I can't help it. With my head on your arm and holding your hand and watching you cross over. It rained Honey, sooooo hard that day as I cried. The Angels in heaven was crying with me, sad day..the earth lost a wonderful human. I lost my best friend, my lover, I do not feel anyone will ever understand me like you did. Erika I love you...you were my life...my reason..I just wanted to tell you I am sorry...I am so sorry honey I could not save you.

I thought of you with love today , but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in Silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake, with which I 'll never part. God has you
in his keeping, I have you in my heart. Love you always forever and a day.

Erika and Kay Jan 11,1992 16 years together.
March 14,1998 Holy Union
Erika's Vow "Kay, Everyone thought this day would never come for me. But then, they didn't know you, or the magic that is "Us". You have taken me to new heights in every way. Your unconditional love is something I certainly never experienced before, and rest assurred. I will treasure and protect it with my life. You will always be as loved as you are at this moment and more. You will always find me by your side in any and all situations. On this you have my solemn vow." Your Erika
Kay's vow - "Erika, When I first met you, it was "Infatuation". Our first date it was "Anticipation". Our love had become a "Realization". When Love was selfish and cold I carried a heavy heart. I prayed to God to bring me a Love to melt the pain. "God sent you". I vow to you to cherish what God has sent me. You will always be my love as you are this moment forever and a day. To always think of "we" first and "I" second. Let our Love be an example of what Love means to all we meet. Your Kay"