I went to the hospital today to take the nurses that took such good care of you last Dec.I took a box of dofferent teas and a box of cookies.
I light a candle for Aids Day today baby I am so sad that you are gone I can not go to the hospital again it broke my heart to see the room you suffered so much in.
I do not know how I am going to make it past this holiday season I have this black hole that only you can fill and I shall never see your face or touch you or kiss you again only in my dreams I do dream of you often.I love you my sweet boy so so much I do know you are near me you said you would be I do senc you but its not the same as having you here.
And Christmas was your favorite of year you always did such a great job in your place even the last xmas you had a home,forgive me Benji but I can not put up a tree and I do not think I shall ever since you are gone xmas left with you.
I love you benji help mom make it through this time of the year most are happy and I am glad for for that but I shall not ever be as happy as I use to be when you where in my life.Love Mom.

There have been 9 tributes left for Benjamin( Benn) .

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Its 10 months since you have been gone
My Darling Son Benn how I miss you its been 10 months now, your smile your hello Mom your wave when I use to go to work out your window all the memories of you come flooding in.I cry and cry but I know you would not want me too.
I know that someone day well meet again we are part of each other the one thing that makes me sad is all your talents died with you all of you died you did not pass on who you where.But I shall keep you alive through me and I wish people would not be so afarid to talk about I know they dont want to upset me but I want to talk about you and all you meant to me.I shall love you forever and beyond you are in my heart and soul and shall be forever more.Love you sweetie, Mom

Susan Szabo (Mother)
3 weeks ago
~see I did not forget you, I carved you in the palm of my hand~

Anna Brown
3 weeks ago
My son has wings now
My Dearest Benn ,I know you have wings now ever since you have been gone I see feathers almost every day this morning when I was getting ready for work putting on my make-up out of the blue a tiny feather floated down and as I went to catch it I knew that you are beside me always.I know in my heart that it was your way of telling me that you are my angel and that you watch over your Mom.Thank you my beloved son for all the love you gave to me and even now in all my saddness and sorrow I feel you love around me.I love you foever and beyond Mom.

Susan Szabo (Mother)
September 2, 2008, 3:35 am
My Dear Benji
I just got home from work and I miss you so much you.I miss your phone calls I miss not seeing you I have this ache that is there no matter what I seen to do I just miss you why are there no words for the feeling of not having you in my life anymore.I love you with all my being and I hope I see you in my dreams tonight my beloved son.I love you forever and beyond.Mom

Susan Szabo (Mother)
August 30, 2008, 6:22 am
Thinking of you Benji
Hi Benji, just me again, thinking of you before I go to sleep. Wow, you are on my mind, so much.It is so sad it has been so many years, but many years can never take away my precious memories of you. Luv JUdy

Judy (Friend) August 28, 2008, 5:10 am
Dear Heavingly Father, It's me Judy, and I was just thinking ,a dream I know, but wouldn't it be wonderful, if we light enough candles, they could build a glowing stairway from heaven, where Benji could walk down and visit, I know Lord, he is yours now, and I know Lord, there is no way, he would want to come back to a sad excuse of this world, the way it is, I know Lord, that he has Heaven on earth now, but wouldn't it be wonderful?I know Lord, as I lift up Susan in prayer to you, please Lord help heal her broken heart, just a bit Lord, and I know Lord, that we are never given more than we can handle, as we draw from your help and strength,but wouldn't it be wonderful? I know Lord, I MUST visit Benji's mom, but right now it is impossible, for many reason, and I know Lord, that you know that too!Wouldn't it be wonderful!So Lord I am asking in faith, that in your perfect timing,and your perfect will, that I may have the pleasure of visiting Benjis' mom, won't it be wonderful?So I come to you Father, thanking you for all your blessings, knowing that we sometimes don't understand things and why they happen, but thanking you for our children, our grandchildren ,our families and good friends, and I know Lord, that our children our just lent to us, some for years, some for days,some for hours and maybe just minutes,they are just entrusted to us, but they belong to you. Heaven must be beautiful, no pain, no tears, no sadness!Yes it will be wonderful!!!!!!!

Judy (Friend) August 3, 2008, 12:00 am
It\'s been so long
Memories are precious, I have many of you, a little guy who was Weak but Strong, a little guy ,who was very emotional, BUT STrong, a little guy, who loved to cook, who loved to help in the kitchen, who loved mom, who loved life, who was fun with when we went camping, who stuck up for mom, when needed, who was sensitive, who loved to entertain my kids when we came over, you were a sweet,sweet boy, I never knew you as a man, as you had moved away, and Benji, there were many years I tried to get in contact with your mom, but to no avail,even when you were still here in the country., there was something in the way,that kept our families apart, BUT i never forgot you,I am still in awe, that you left us so soon. Judy

Judy (Friend) July 28, 2008, 12:00 am
Tribute to Ben
My SON,Now here was a man
No he could do no wrong,
He was everything strong,
My SON.
When he was small,
I felt ten feet tall
When he would walk by my side,
And every one, would say thats' Sues' son
And my heart,would burst with pride
My son, oh I miss him so
And I surely know
that someday day again
We will walk hand in hand
MY SON

Judy (Friend) July 19, 2008, 12:00 am
A message from mum
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The weeks & months are passing by
And still the tears do fall,
I miss you more than ever Benn
Time doesn't heal at all.
It doesn't stop the heartache
Or take away the pain,
But with the start of each new day
The hurt begins again.
They say hearts can't be broken
But i know this is not true,
For the day God took my Benn away
My heart was broke in two.
Silent tears fall often
That others do not see,
For a very special Son
Who means the world to me..

♥ ¸.•*´)¸•*´ ´*•¸(*•.¸♥

Barbara Richard Littles Mum (GTS Friend)
June 29, 2008, 12:00 am

1969 - 2008
Location North Vancouver Bc Canada
Age 38
Date of Birth 12/03/1969
Date of Death 10/01/2008
Visitors 666 since 29/06/2008
Creator Susan Szabo

My son Benn was my best friend he was always there for me.He called me almost everday and always ended with I love you mom.He would kiss my cheek when he would leave after he would come for a visit.He was a fine youung man that would have given all he had to his family and his friends.I shall never be the same now that he is gone but what a gift I was given when he came into the world .Love you forever my darling son Benn. I watch you take your first step and your last I sat with you the night you died but fell asleep as you took your last breath but that was your journey home my son so that is how it had to be but it breaks my heart not to hear you call me Mom if I had one wish that would be to hear your voice again and to hear you laugh and see your bright eyes.I'll love you forever and beyond.May you be in your angels arms now that you can not be in mine.The days have turned into months now and I miss you so how I wish I could see your smile.You where the sunshine in my life as a little boy you where so so funny you had a great sence of humor and you carried that into your youth and even as an adult.Everyone one you meet seem to take to you and no one could have had a more true friend than you my beloved son Benn. Love you Mom.